This post is going to be a little personal because it is about me. I’m writing it to help me overcome this but I’m publishing it in hopes that it will resonate with and help someone else. This is a problem that I did not know I had until I realized that my husband has to repeatedly ask me a simple question, “Have you prayed about it yet?”
Let me give you all a little background on me. I’m the kind of person who has faith that with Jesus anything is possible. I believe that if you ask anything in the name of Jesus Christ, God will do it for you (John 14:13) I am an intercessor, often going into prayer for family, friends, even strangers who have no idea that I am praying for them. I have seen countless prayers answered and I believe these things came to pass because there were at least two of us praying while gathered in His midst (Matthew 18:19-20). But when it comes to praying for myself, Kevin has to remind me. When I’m not feeling well and laying in bed in pain, Kevin comes in and asks, “Have you prayed about it yet?” When I’m frustrated with the kids and on the verge of a snapping, Kevin calmly asks, “Have you prayed about it yet?”. When I’ve had a hard day at work and cannot seem to shake what is bothering me, Kevin asks, “Have you prayed about it yet?” Unfortunately, my answer is usually “no”. Kevin is great and just goes into prayer with me immediately, but lately I have been wondering why this seems to be my regular answer.
To be completely honest, it means that I don’t think that I am as deserving of God’s help as everyone else. At first I tried to justify my lack of prayer to mean that my problems are relatively small problems in contrast to other people’s issues. Then I had to look at this and realize that I am not taking God at His Word. 1 Peter 5:7 (ESV) tells us to cast “all your anxieties on Him, because He cares for you”. Philippians 4:6-7 (NIV) says “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.” What stands out about these two scriptures, is that they both tell us to go to God with anything. They don’t tell us to only go to God with big problems or only in desperate situations, the Word says “all” and “every”. I know and have proof that God can and will move on my behalf and offer up His peace and healing. But if I’m not asking Him to, then I have a low sense of my value to God.
Isaiah 43:1b-4 (NIV) is a beautiful description of how much we mean to God.
“Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers; they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze, for I am the Lord Your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;…Since you are precious and honored in My sight, and because I love you, I will give people in exchange for you, nations in exchange for your life.”
Zephaniah 3:17 (NIV) says, “The Lord your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in His love He will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing”.
Luke 12:7 (NIV) says, “Indeed the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows”.
These are all wonderful reminders of God’s love for us and how much we mean to Him. God has given me so many blessings that I did not pray for, imagine how blessed I would be if I took all of my concerns to Him as He requests of me. This goes for every Christian. If we would just put God first in everything, and go to Him, He will do just what He promised. God is not just the Almighty, He is our Father. And our Father wants us to depend more on Him and ourselves less.
The next time Kevin asks me, “Have you prayed about it yet?” My answer will be “Yes!”
Does this resonate with you? If so, chime in below!!!